Embracing The Unknown…
[ transcripts of the audio ]
Questing the unknown is a metaphor it’s an idea; it’s a way of living and experiencing the world.
It’s an idea that for me allows me to open up to what seems to be the impossible which is also the possible.
It sounds a little bit convoluted because it is, words are often like this; the words aren’t necessarily the thing.
The message isn’t the thing.
But these are the bridges that we use to get into the ideas that help us open up our perspective, help us see a little bit more help us understand and contemplate our own state of being and our own being in the world.
It’s not necessarily something that is wooey wooey or esoteric.
This is a very real experience where I don’t know hat is going to happen next.
I don’t know what words are going to come from my mind next or where they’re coming from I don’t know when I walk out of the place that I’m in right now in the studio that I’m in. I don’t know when I walk out the door who I might run into. Or what experience I might have.
All of life is like this.
But we in some sense pretend that it’s not.
We have this natural desire to control but there are some things we can’t control, most everything actually.
When we can live in this place of uncertainty, like the poet John Keats says, negative capability, the idea of being able to be at peace with the unknown with the uncertainties of life.
I mean Negative Capability, that is, when a man is capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason- ( The context of this quote matters too. If you are curious to know more go searching. )
But when you can really explore that and move into that and let that be our state of being and the way we play in the world it takes us and liberates us in a way so we’re no longer bound by our own fears our own anxieties toward the future.
Recognizing and seeing from our own experience this has to be totally experiential for you, recognizing and seeing from our own experience that everything is an unknown for us.
I could take today for example I had so many conversations with people that I had no idea was going to have conversations with just because that’s the nature of reality. I had no idea actually that I was going to be sitting in front of the camera today having this conversation with you and sharing this moment with you.
I knew I wanted to do it, but I had no idea what it was going to be like necessarily where I was going to do it what with the set up was going to be.
And then it is just so.
And this is how it all comes so I know I’m reiterating a point but it’s on purpose and when we can take ourselves to the place of allowing ourselves to play in the world without holding on and grasping and strangling things it becomes a much more beautiful experience to have.
I’m going to leave that aspect of questioning the unknown at that place.
But the other part of it for me is to take you on a journey of actually going into the world of what is actually possible for us and unraveling and unwrapping that and seeing what that is and what that looks like.
For me it’s the journey races a journey of my awakening.
Whatever that might be for me it’s having more presence and ability to attend to what I want to do and to be able to experience the beauty and nuances in life that exist that I get to see all the time the synchronicities, the flow and the madness really because there’s a lot of chaos and a lot of…
Sort of comic pain if you will…
There is a certain you all of which I totally embrace and love. But it’s also like being able to go into that place and explore what is unknown.
And I mean that in a real sense like what can you do with your mind.
- What can you do with your body.
- What can you create that you haven’t created yet.
- What are the things that you can do that others say is impossible.
- What is it like actually to live from that place where you can say to yourself, “this is what I want this is what I want to experience this is what I want to create,” and then go about creating that or just sitting back and watching it all unfold.
But being so aware and having that level of liberation for yourself that you can choose to either participate or to witness or there is another stage to us, and at this stage I don’t want to create a separation regard but there is another aspect to this of being lived.
And then you get that sensation where you are actually being lived and somehow in all of that you have this point of awareness where you get to play and watch and participate as if you’re in the living or the waking dream rather it’s really a strange sensation but it’s it’s a lot of fun.
All of these things meld together these are all part of our human experience.
Questing the unknown is going into those places.
It’s taking it all apart, seeing it exploring it, and using it as a contemplative practice.
You can call it a pointing out instructions. The idea that we’re just pointing to other things other possibilities.
We are literally like unveiling our own being and identity.
It seems as if we’re recreating ourselves often.
And I happen to do this I like to go and to flow on these tangents and this is sort of one but not quite. I use this idea of dis-identifying to find our own identity.
If we look at this we can create ourselves; we can create the way we are in the world by using certain practices mindfulness practices having a certain desire.
Such as, ‘I was once like this and now I seem to be like this.
I don’t know where I’m going to be or what I’m at it be like but I seem to be able to design it in some kind of way.
But at the same time there seems to be an identity that exists within, something that I’m trying to get to know more and more of, something I’m trying to go deeper and deeper into something as if, I’m trying to get to know myself or my self that is everything else.
But there are these two places we play.
I like to dis-identify so I play with identity what it means to be me, what it means to be you; how you identify with stories you hold onto that you have created and constructed your reality and self out of and then also to, in that exploration we dis-identify from all of that so we can get to the root and identify and see who we actually are, whatever that actually is.
And I don’t know but that’s where I’m playing; that’s where I’m going.
And that’s where I’m taking this to dis-identify to identify.
That’s a fun place to play. It’s creation but also with a kind of destruction.
And we’re going on that journey as well.
This will be this will all unfold for me questing the unknown and it will become whatever it’s going to become.
But it definitely has this framework.
One of my audio’s you actually hear an interview I just did with Jack Forem, I believe it’s interview number three.
I have this framework and I love playing with this idea that I spoke with Jack about where we look for and play with the infinite within the finite.
I am going to explore what that means for a minute; so the finite being I am in this body as I am. It has its physical constraints.
Yet I seem to be able to do an infinite amount of things within this body so I can move in different ways in an infinite amount of different ways and different patterns.
I speak all of these different words using a very finite structure of grammar for example.
There’s all sorts of examples of this in our lives and I seem to be able to continually continually create, to continue to go into that creation, go go go nonstop.
It always is coming through me. And I love playing in that world and getting to know what that is and freeing that so that I am at this place where I am no longer an obstacle to my own creation.
And I don’t know what that looks like or what that is but that’s where we’re going that’s what we’re doing.
And so in a real true sense for me this is a process of awakening and exploring whatever awakening is because I don’t know what that is either.
And that’s why this is so much fun because it’s so much madness in that regard and it’s just an exploration.
I have that idea that it’s just life wanting to experience more of the experience of life. It’s as much as I’ve been able to figure out so far and I don’t know what one would do with it other than just play. And allow for it to be an exploration into the unknown.
That for me is a big part of questing the unknown is about and that’s what we’ll be exploring here as well.
Also, I have said this before but it is really looking like what is possible.
What do we also not know that we think we know and can we unravel that and know it better and know it to be more true or not true.
Can we sort of identify ourselves so we can identify ourselves, so that we can connect and be living in this state of I don’t want to say flow but truth.
We’re connected to whatever that is that’s coming through us that’s living us.
These are some of the ideas of questing the unknown is for me, for you will be something different and I hope it is something different or similar because I want it to be your own experience; everything has to be for me in my own experience and that’s how I live.
That is that and I’ll leave it there for now.
And thank you for coming in on the journey with me and questing the unknown and I really want this to be of service and of value to you as much as it’s going to be a joy for me.
And we will play; we will go questing the I know; we’ll go into having conversations with each other and ourselves and others and we’ll continue to experience more of the experience of life.
I really also have to say that’s one thing I learn from everyone follow no one be your own revolution, your own evolution with joy compassion as always dissent if you will. I love that.
I want you to be able to think for yourself and have your own experience.
I don’t want to tell you what to do and I don’t want to be told what to do.
In this regard it was the friends I like that much love and I look forward to seeing you soon.